Which demon took control? How could I be so inattentive?
..Which fairy world caught me? Mistakes can't be reversed. Forgiveness is no duty. It hurts to see myself without any dignity. I have to face the facts. I'm not half as good as I always thought, I am. I hate myself for being dishonest. For being ignorant. For being all, I never wanted to be. Things have to change. Faster than I could count to three. I have to change right now. This moment. Not later, under no circumstances tomorrow.
..There's nothing I want to replace. I'd like to skip these hours of unsuspectingness. These hours of thoughts, nobody should think.
..I'm tidying up my mind. I have to take all trash to shit. I am midden.
..My whole life's midden. How does anyone endure me?
..And why I'm fuckin' crying? And I hate myself for doing it. Self-pity. I botched my mind. Nobody but me. Broken by myself. I mustn't cry. I should interrupt. It rinses out my last breeze of wit.
..Honesty.
..Sincerity.
..Empathy.
..From now to death.
So, than.
..'Love to anybody' wouldn't be squarely.
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